As my adolescent years goes, I have realized that one thing doesn't go. This thing is what has been holding me back from being who I really am. I am a very shy/timid person when it comes to meeting new people or confronting people. I never understood why. When i look back on my life there are things that if i wasn't shy I would of done them.
My grandfather has been there for me through everything no matter what it is, and I would take his saying any day. I have been told by my grandfather that I'm shy, but never believed him. He told me that I'm a outstanding grandson, and that I obtained this trait from my mom, but being shy is something that is going to hold me back. It has, and I feel taunted by it. When I'm meeting new people I'm usually silent. As well when I'm being interviewed for a job or internship. I feel that the biggest problem for me is that I would feel like an outcast, and wouldn't be accepted for who I am.
Being shy has been a nuisance for a while, and i have tried overcoming it. It is not an easy battle to fight since I always have that feeling of fitting in on the back of my head. This is something that I'm working on, and I believe the first step in anything is accepting what flaw I have. The second is telling people what is holding me back from being who I really am.
You know, I can really empathize with you. I'm not sure I was shy, but I was quite introverted. I could talk to people, but I often chose not too, especially in high school. It is probably something you will feel your way around. You may decide you are comfortable being introverted, or you may develop into an extrovert. Either way, it is great that you are thinking about it and trying to work through it now. Next year, you will have the opportunity to start all over with a brand new group of people!
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